I have to tell you about my new book and my strong reaction to it. I had read the synopsis and was intrigued, so I put it on my Kobo wish list for when I finished the latest book I had checked out on my Library app (I couldn’t find a coy on the library app) which I did on Saturday. On Saturday I bought it, but, after reading the forward, I couldn’t go on reading it because every time I thought about it I would well-up and start sobbing.
The book is called, “On Killing: The psychological cost of learning to kill in war and society”. It wasn’t what I expected. I expected it to be a study by a psychologist on how armies and other armed forces desensitize their members to killing and the psychological damage it does to those members. Reading the forward, I realized that the author is not a psychologist doing research, but a Lt. Col. inside the army and this is a fucking “how to” manual. The forward talks about the long standing “problem” of getting soldiers to actually kill another human being and cites a study in WWII about how when faced with the enemy a large percentage of soldiers on the line either don’t fire or deliberately mis-fire, and that this has been a problem that is cited throughout history. He then talks about measures in training done to overcome this “resistance” such as changing from bulls-eye targets for shooting practice to human silhouettes or even more lifelike targets. He also talked about how earlier editions of the book have been required reading at West Point, the CIA and FBI, academies, and other institutions that instruct in “deadly force”. A how to manual for conditioning people to overcome their basic humanity and empathy in order to kill other human beings in cold blood on command, and how to deal with the mess it makes of the person afterward when you have a monster that can no longer function in society.
I read this preface and then went to the grocery store for milk and laundry detergent. While scanning my groceries at the check out, I started welling up and had to suppress sobbing. Driving home I was full out sobbing and couldn’t think about the book for the rest of the day without welling up with sobs. So, I may have to put the book away for a while.
I’ve been thinking about why I have had such a strong reaction, why this is so triggering. I was fine when I expected the book to be a clinical research study from the outside, but this change in perspective has made a big difference. We all know that agencies such as the army that train their members to kill people. I was going to use the euphemism “use deadly force”, but that makes my point. That it has always been sanitized by euphemisms and other means and the fact that these agencies train people to overcome their humanity is somewhat of an open secret, understood but not talked about, a bit shameful, but hidden as an unpleasant necessity. I think that part of what I was reacting to was how this book was normalizing and even lauding the process as a great achievement that one should work to get better at and to do it with less consequences. Sell their soul to the devil, but in a way that lessens the sentence in hell as much as possible. And I reacted to that with great sorrow; that dehumanization and the deliberate curtailment of empathy should be a goal and lauded in our society.
It just goes against all my core values of what is loving and true and worthy, and the kind of society that hope to live in. It also brings home to me how insulated I am from violence and how that insulation depends on the cultivation of this kind of violence on others, “outside the wall” of pleasant middle class Canadian society. I also realize my complicity in this system while benefiting from it.
I have been insulated from violence all my life and have idealized a life of non-violence. Probably the only example of violence (if you can call it that) that I can recall is in Grade 5 when lining up to come in from recess another boy pushed me out of line and struck me. I was so incensed that I yelled in his face that he should, “strike my other cheek!”. I was so vehement and aggressive in my response that I think I scared the other fellow, which I don’t think was quite what Jesus intended. Even growing up with my brother we never had physical fights or hit each other. I remember once when we were quite young, Terry had ratted me out on something to our mother and I had run from her to my brother full of fury to enact vengeance. Terry cowered beneath me once caught, but once he was under my power I just stood there unable to harm him.
In Highschool the movie about Ghandi made a big impression on me and I read a biography of his life after watching the movie. The movie was produced for Western audiences and tailored the story to show parallels between Ghandi and Jesus’ teachings.
Earlier this year I became curious again about Jesus’ teaching on non-resistance.
Matthew 6
39 But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. 40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well. 41 If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. 42 Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
Luke 6
27 “But I say to you who are listening: Love your enemies; do good to those who hate you; 28 bless those who curse you; pray for those who mistreat you. 29 If anyone strikes you on the cheek, offer the other also, and from anyone who takes away your coat do not withhold even your shirt. 30 Give to everyone who asks of you, and if anyone takes away what is yours, do not ask for it back again. 31 Do to others as you would have them do to you.
These are pretty radical teachings and occurred to me that I could not remember any examples of Christian commentary on this teaching other than a convoluted explanation about striking the other cheek where one cheek would be the one where you would strike someone of lower rank and the other an equal and that Jesus wasn’t really saying what the rest of the passage repeats but was telling people to stand up for themselves.
So, I purposely set out to find commentary on Jesus’ teaching on non-resistance and found out that this was the subject of most of Leo Tolstoy’s “The Kingdom Of God is Within” and that both Ghandi and Martin Luther King Jr. credited Tolstoy as an inspiration. So, I’ve been picking away at Tolstoy’s work. It’s long and dense, as befitting a Russian novelist, and has no large talking cats to add levity.
The more I consider and wrestle with Jesus’ teaching on non-resistance the more I am struck by Christianity’s contradictory values as a whole in support of Empire, the most blatant being American evangelical teaching. If someone threatens to strike you, you shoot them with your open carry gun. Someone coming on your property to take something from you is also a legitimate target and the opportunity to kill someone and you can do it and spend two hours the next Sunday with your hands in the air praising Jesus without seeing any contradiction.
It is also ironic that I, who am unconvinced of Jesus’ godhood (and am unconvinced of God’s “godhood” in a literal sentient superbeing way) take his teaching in what in my mind is much more seriously. If Jesus is God, then his teaching and example can be filed away as unattainable and only possible by saints at best. Jesus death as an act of substitutional atonement that provides a ticket to heaven in the afterlife to all those who give their intellectual assent to this as being factual is much easier and asks a lot less of a person than a death that embodies his teaching of non-resistance to evil that calls us to emulate him and follow the same path. And really, why go through the effort of trying to follow Jesus’ teaching if you have decided that it is all about getting into heaven when you die (at least the important part), and you’ve already got your ticket, and this life is just an inconvenient waiting period where you’re entitled to wait in comfort. And besides, if you fail to try to follow Jesus teaching, you can always “confess your sin” or go up at the next alter call, and all responsibility and accountability are wiped clean.
I have been doing a lot of thinking and wrestling with Jesus teaching on non-resistance. Although I am no longer convinced of Jesus’ divinity, his teaching is not only a big part of my heritage and sets the stage for me on how to perceive the world, but I also affirm the truth and hope of his teaching and example because they “sit right” in contrast to the message and values that dominate our society. It is a difficult teaching to wrestle with because it goes against so many of the assumptions we take for granted in our society. It makes me think of the quote by G.K. Chesterton: “The Christian ideal has not been tried and found wanting. It has been found difficult; and left untried.”
I have in no sense a complete or even consistent view on non-violence and non-resistance. I support the Palestinian right to resist, including the use of violence, their occupation and genocide. But, at the same time I question the validity of using violence in any circumstance, no matter the justification. Each side, every user of violence, has a rationale or justification. Even if they can’t justify the specific occurrence, they can tie it back to what they see as a greater good and the “defence” of their group, tribe, nation. To refuse to use violence out of love of the greater good of humanity is cast as treason against one’s tribe for which one is supposed to favour over others. That’s why Jesus’ call to expand the circle of love and concern beyond family, religion, race, and nation, is so radical.
I also reject the argument that dependence on violence and non-violence are a binary where if you live a life free from violence due to state sanctioned violence, you have no right to criticize militarism in both the army and domestic policing forces and that there is no other way to respond to violence except with more violence or the threat of it.
I have been wrestling with Mark Carny’s announcement of the largest investment in the Canadian military and weapons manufacturing for both domestic use and for export in Canadian history outside of war time. I struggle with the idea that money is going to militarism when our own people are suffering poverty. I also question the assumptions around the need for an expanded military. Who would we fight or deter with the paltry force we could muster even doubling our current force against an expected adversary on the world stage. The most likely adversary would be the United States who have been openly talking about annexation. No force that we could stage, even if we used the sum total of our economy, would in any way be a deterrent or would be able to resist an invasion. The same would be true for Russia and China. The only use I could see would be to support Eastern European nations like the Ukraine from Russian encroachment and so further develop European alliances and assured trade partners.
This makes me think about the “need” for an army at all. It is argued that if we didn’t have an army we would have ended up being conquered by Nazi Germany and would have lost our freedoms and the continued need for an army is to deter the same type of conquering by Russia or China with the same loss of freedoms. The evil of having that type of government conquering us is epitomized by the Holocaust. Yet, the righteous west that won the second world war and is credited for ending the Holocaust had their own concentration camps for Italian and Japanese people and is currently sponsoring a genocide and holocaust in Gaza. Are the deaths of the second World War justified by the “more moral” governments winning? A lot of the “elites” in German and Japanese society stayed in power and in some cases little actually changed with the Allied victory.
I’ve also heard claims about how the Army “keeps us free”. One time I heard an ad said that if you enjoyed an afternoon at the beach you should thank a veteran, as if German and Japanese citizens didn’t enjoy afternoons at the beach and if we were under their government we would not be either. I’m no fan of totalitarian of authoritarian governments, but fighting wars is no guarantee against fascism as the United States is a prime example. Also, war and violence is not the only way one can resist. I think of India resisting English colonialism and Ghandi’s non-violent protests. He didn’t succeed in curtailing all violence in the resistance, and people died, but a lot less people died than if it was all out armed resistance for independence.
What if Germany and Japan had won the Second World War? Would we have fought the new totalitarian government in different ways and, if so, what would the society that resulted be like, particularly if it was a non-violent resistance?
I think I’m also greatly dismayed at the lack of imagination with the assumptions built into our culture that there are no alternatives to violence and militarism and their threats to keep us safe. I think of Ernst Bloch’s quote:
“The most tragic form of loss isn’t the loss of security; it is the loss of the capacity to imagine that things could be different”
And from the book I just finished by Palestinian Canadian Safee Teebi,
“I want to never hope, to never be stuck in its expectant static. I want to always imagine, because there is nothing that compares with the engine of imagining”.








